july 22, 2025
12:49 - Watched the newest Vsauce video. Not really a huge follower of him but I thought it would be interesting. It was actually pretty scary. Lot of discussion about waht it means to live and die. What does it mean? Maybe its just the experience. There was a little bit that reminded me of what I was thinking about yesterday. When you die, all of your thoughts, the things you never said, your wants, the things you like, all the things that never left your brain are gone. That's what death is. But I feel like once something leaves you, once you put it out into the world, it sort of ceases to be you. You might have made it, but the you that created it is gone, you're someone else the moment after. I think that's what's scary. There's no preserving any version of yourself. As much as I write and record and try to be creatively fulfilled, the me that wanted to do that thing will always be dead, left in the past. So why do anything at all?
oh well, back to work.