july 21, 2025
9:00-ish - watched Punch-Drunk Love last night with a friend. really liked it. he's so me! whatever that means.
10:30-ish - working today. should be fun-ish. very interested in this neocities thing. might learn how to do layout stuff tonight.
12:32 - I've been thinking a lot about expression recently. I think that it's kinda necessary. Like if a person is really just a collection of their actions, then without expressing your thoughts you might as well not have them. I guess that a lot of expression is unconscious, like feeling guiding your actions even without you consciously making choices. I spoke to my coworker the other day, and he said he really doesn't have a lot of opinions about anything. I feel like that's really sad. Either he does have opinions and doesn't have the guts to talk about them, or he really just doesn't think about anything?? Either one of those options is really depressing to think about. Hard to pity him about it though, he's pretty annoying. Anyways. I guess the point is that I think I'll go crazy without some sort of outlet. At least one that I can just use whenever I want. That's what this page is for. Anyways time to learn layout while I'm still on break at work.
practice layout page
12:58 - hooray i have figured out what i need to learn. will implement at link above l8r
13:06 - As an aside to my previous thoughts, It's sort of disappointing that I'll never be able to fully express myself on this site. It'll only be the parts I choose to expose, never the full picture. But I guess that's true about anything. It's also disappointing it won't really be a narrative treat. Maybe enough of it will be. The monotony is sort of the point.