july 25, 2025 - 9:59 PM
Just worked on a new version of the main page for a little while. Got the aesthetic down I think, just have to work on the layout and put the content in. But I feel pretty successful so far. Wanted to note some of my thoughts before I'm done here for the day. I was reading some wikipedia articles earlier, mostly art stuff. I was very interested in some of the analysis. I haven't actually read it too thoroughly yet, but this article on the "anxiety of influence" seems really interesting. It was associated with a specific painting that I really connected with that I'll add below.
Idk, I think it captures some of the anxiety I've been having about my own work. It feels like some of the difficulty just comes from the comparison to everything I've consumed already. Maybe it would be easier to create if I hadn't seen anything made by anyone else. That can't really be true though, I think. All art comes from somewhere. If my inspiration was the world I observe, I would compare myself to that. If my inspiration was my own emotions, I would compare myself to that. I guess it ties back a little to my discussion the other day about the death of ideas. At least I think that's relevant.
Less internal stuff now. I think I'm gonna go watch The Oldest View once I'm done typing. I'm genuinely surprised with how great the reviews I've seen on it are. I kinda brushed it off a bit, since I found the backrooms stuff difficult to follow and wasn't super interested. Clearly well made, and pretty scary, but idk, it just didn't connect with me. Very interested in this Kane Parsons guy though, since he's totally indie. Hoping this one will really get me motivated. I don't remember if I talked about this yesterday, but I find it really interesting when a movie leaves me super motivated. Just ready to go make something myself. Even the massive budget stuff, the things I'm nowhere close to, make me want to just film something. It's crazy. I'm interested to see whether something smaller-scale, more within reach, would have the same effect.
Anyways. Hope my loyal readers had a great day today. I'll never find out, but I think I'm okay with that.
back to home